Hmmm well okay everything was almost fine...i am feeling super tired for this week alr..really want to throw everything down and give up haizz...now what cant be close with one another again..okay uh can..i really dk what to do alr uh.Pastor Frazer and Bishop Dale Bronner was super powerful!! (: Really spoke into my heart! (; Was so happy abt it! Got discipleship from booby on fasting,character and attitude..omg i really feel like crying for somehow uh..but i just cant..i really hate myself now..i feel so uncared for..so outcasted by everyone..i really want to change this suckish attitude of my..but i really cant..how to sia..walao..i really one to be that kinda of person that can really build up atmosphere and i really want to become a CGL but my character and everything reflects who i am..i think i should just give up this dream alr..so dead uh..On fire christian huh..i dont think i am even one..complaining over such little things alr...i really want to end my life here..its just feel so unmeaningful to me alr.. really hate to bottled things up into my heart..it feels so sian and sad uh..i really want somebody who can really sit down and talk to me and understand my feelings too..used to have one person who can do that for..but i am really too afraid to confront that person now uh..feeling so unwanted and useless lah..jinx in my faily kcan...nvm
-Eugene
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